Sunday, May 27, 2007

Now Saner

Okay I wrote that previous post in a moment of intense frustration. Although I am dealing with different emotions right now.
I had been having a good weekend. On Friday I took the day off from work. I had to go and see the doctor to check all was well. He said a few things - nothing too alarming- and said I should come back next week for a blood test and a scan. So that went well. After that I went for a spot of retail therapy, there's nothing like a pair of shoes to make you feel better! Met up with hubby when he finished from work. We went to see Spiderman 3 in the evening. It was alright, not bad at all though not as cool as Spiderman 2.
Yesterday, we woke up early as hubby was travelling to Lagos in the evening. He was looking forward to this trip because he hasn't been back to Nigeria for more than 10 years! When he told me he wanted to go, I was pleased. In fact I was alright throughout the day, even seeing him off to the airport happily. Only when it was 5 minutes before he had to leave that I started feeling sad and I almost cried. He's only going for 5 days but I'm going to miss him so much. But as I left hubby at the airport, my dad called me to say he was around for a week. I told him I'll call him later. Got home and didn't go to bed until 3.00am. My bed was half empty :(
I was woken up this morning with a call from hubby to say he had arrived safely and already having fun. I wanted to tell him I was missing him but decided not to. Didn't want to spoil his mood. Later called my dad and we spoke for over an hour, just talking about different things. I told him I was fed up with my career as an accountant and I wasn't cut out to work in an office for the rest of my life. Surprisingly, he seemed fine with it! He even said I should start writing my book right away, that he wants to read the first two chapters before he leaves next week! He said he would be happy to help me if I needed anything. Thanks for your support dad - that means so much to me.

I just spoke to one of my best friends now. He has been having a rough time lately with his relationship. Now he told me that he and the girl had broken up during the week. I had known they were having problems, but I never really thought they would break up after all this time. I feel so bad now, even though it's not my fault. I just feel bad for them.

The weather is rather grey and gloomy, matching my mood. I'm going to find something to do to cheer myself up. Maybe I'll listen to my old Destiny's Child tunes, they always used to cheer me up before!


  1. Let hubby know that you miss him jare.
    You know our parents are always our biggest fans, your dad really supported you. I am looking forward to reading your book too but before you write off accounting totally, i think you should take a break for a while and see whether you are just bored with the current job or its with the career choice itself.

  2. I hope you are feeling better.

    God is definitely orchestrating your steps. He knows your fears, what you are feeling now and will definitely grant you strength in this season of your life.

    God has ordained great things in your life that will definitely come to pass. So, just continue to trust him (though that can be very hard).

    Your feelings about your job and career are not a surprise to him. In fact, he has made a way of escape. God synchronizes His answers to accomplish His purpose- Bishop Jakes.

    God will help you as you take the next steps and make your decisions.

    Along those lines, Bishop Jakes just came out with a new book "Repositioning yourself: Living life without limits.". This best-seller book should be a blessing to you.

    God bless.

  3. i hope the music cheered u up
    good luck in your chosen career. i'm sure u will succeed in it.

  4. AAAAAAAHHHHHHh...Pele...He will be back soon and with the book, one word at a time brings you closer to the end...

  5. Favoured girl, i'm sorry to be gate crashing. It's just that somehow i feel you seriously! I am at a phase in my life where i'm telling myself if i don't do something with my gift, i never will do anything. I love writing but i have no published work to my name and i'm wondering, will i just let life slip by me. No way! I shouldn't wait till i have kids now that i'm married to decide what to do. Hubby has been really encouraging, buying me every Nigerian fiction he can lay hands on to encourage me and i finally started on my book which i hope to have published before the year runs out..Amen..

    I'm saying i feel you and i know you can do it. You have it in you...go girl!

  6. Good to know ya feeling better already! All da best!

  7. Take care and before you know it, hubby is back.

  8. sweety mi, ma worry hubby will be back beforeu know it.. ur best friend and his babe, too sad..God will bless us all sha.

  9. It will only get better...I am with your Dad on that one, you will be surprise how much you can one can sail your ship (of your life) for you when you are the Captain...Just keep on going and never slow down...

  10. jummy3:38 PM

    Eya !! pele dear i know hw you feel about career change and all that. i`ve been there too.Just believe in yself and trust God to lead you in the right directn.As per hubby i beg let the man know you miss him jare.

  11. Anonymous7:29 PM

    wait, how come no one else is mentioning your doctors visit?
    are you pregnant?!! if so that is awesome news! hope all is well.

  12. l know how u feel about hubby travelling. Be strong, it's all for a purpose. Stay prayerful.

  13. @Inuke: LOL thanks! I've spoken to hubby this evening and told him I'm missing him a thousand times! I have given it a lot of thought and I realise it's not my current job that's the problem, but the profession itself.

    @Niyi: Thanks a lot,you always seem to know the right things to say! I'm learning to trust God now to direct my steps. I'll go check out that book - anything to inspire me is good...

    @An Ibo Dude: Thank you. I plan to!

    @Uzo: I can't wait for him to come back, I'm so bored. Thanks for the encouragement girl. I haven't started writing the book yet, I still need to do a lot of thinking, but I'm getting closer!

    @Writefreak: OMG you were in the exact same shoes as I am now? How uncanny! Thanks so much for your comment, it makes me feel like I am not alone. I'm glad your husband is very supportive too - bless him. All the best with the book!

    @Ugo: Thanks! I needed that.

  14. @LNC and Excited jade: I know! He'll be back in 2 days, I can't wait!

    @9jaOpeke: You are such an encourager. Thank you.

    @Jummy: I'm praying to God for wisdom. And trying to get rid of my self-doubts. But I know I will get there in the end. Thank you!

    @Anon: LOL, I'm not pregnant. I mentioned in a previous post that I needed to check my blood pressure and sugar levels. Nothing to be worried about. It is well. Thanks for caring :-)

    @Yankeenaijachick: Yeah I know. I just miss him, the house is not the same without him! He'll be back soon, can't wait.


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